the summer has come and gone

Come on, come out
The weather is warm
Come on, come out
Said come on, come on

A spot in the shade
Where oranges fall
A spot in the shade
Away from it all

Watching the sky
Watching a painting coming to life
Shaping and shifting
Staying inside
It all goes it all goes by

A blanket unfolds
A blanket tonight
The pieces of gold
They light up your eyes
Now we're alone
Now we're alive

Watching the sky
Watching the painting come to life
Shifting and shaping
Staying inside
It all goes it all goes it all goes by

Stopping the time
Rushing, waiting
Leave it behind
Shifting and shaping
Keep it inside
It all goes it all goes it all goes by
It all goes passing by
It all goes passing by

it smells like fall

 

things I cannot photograph

- a broken heart                                                    

-how beautiful a starry night really is

-the warmth of sunshine

-laughter

-how much I love people

-my tangled emotions

-the smell of fall

r a n d o m q u o t e s

 (that ring true)


-The saddest kind of sad is the sad that tries not to be sad.
You know, when Sad tries to bite its lip and
not cry and smile and go, “No, I’m happy for you”?

- The way to find out if you love someone or not,
is by talking to them.
The more you talk to them the
more you either hate them or love them

- i've caught your eye for so long
all this time we both sat and wondered,
why didn't you just say something?


- And when I asked you
how you'd been I meant I missed you
more than I've ever missed anything before.

- my greatest fear in life is not to have a big enough
impact on someone's life to always be remembered.


- Because he knows you have to laugh at the things
that hurt you just to keep yourself in balance,
just to keep the world from running you plumb crazy.

-it's probably not the best time to tell you this, but .. well .. maybe it's the perfect time. i realize how incredibly confusing things are between us right now. i can't even begin to explain our relationship. you probably can't either. but i want you to know, that if you ever need me, i'll always be here for you. all you have to do is ask.


-your mistakes do not define you now
and tell you who you're not
you've got to live this life
like it's the only one you've got

-"there are better things ahead
than any we leave behind."
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(it's comforting to have other people put into words what I feel) 

the greatest of these

1 John 4:8
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

 

People advocate love and peace,

but then are not willing to be understanding when someone's tired,

to reach out to the lonely, and say hello to anyone and everyone.

  

 If someone loves you, give love back to them.

in whatever way you can. not only because they
love you, but because in a way, they are
teaching you to love and how to open your heart
and eyes to everything that's around you.

   

'Our days would be happier

if we gave people a little bit of our hearts,
rather than a piece of our mind'

1 John 3:18

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.

 

 I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight,
and that's all they do. They don't pull away. They don't look at your face.
They don't try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms,
without an ounce of selfishness in it.

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the days are swift and long at the same time.

Friday, August 28, 2009

So this is when we finally learn the real meaning of change. You do the things you used to be against, you fall for the people you thought you never would and you befriend the people you used to hate. You'll learn what it's like to have your heart broken, to lose a friend who truly meant something to you and to feel as if everything is really falling apart. There will be times when your life seems absolutely horrible, it feels like it's not real. But despite all this, good things will come too. You'll make the most amazing friends who will be there for you when they probably shouldn't be. Your broken heart will heal once you find the most perfect guy you've ever met and as nothing else can go wrong, things will only get better. There will be days you are so happy and days you feel like dying. Drama happens, gossip goes around and people talk crap. Maybe this is just the teenage years, maybe it's life or maybe this is just what growing up is.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

It's strange how one little decision...easily influenced your mood, which was influenced by other peoples little actions...can snowball and change your whole world. It can change who you are...in fact, little decisions make up who you are.

 

When I leave I want to leave a memory filled with love, the kind you don’t forget. When I go I want to be known as one who lived with no regrets. I want them to say “she had so much to gain, but she gave it away.” And I want them to see something different in me, and that I’m going to be free.  

 

 I want to be the girl...who's the best friend. I AM the girl who's the best friend.

The person who people come to, and talk about their problems, and I listen, and give hugs and cups of tea. I want to give away myself, my heart, to people who need an ear. All of myself, made useful. So many people just need someone to talk to, who cares, to explain whats wrong to, not to get a solution, but to take some of it off their heart. I can do that.

"Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars--- points of light and reason. ...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything."

  

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f i r s t

'I can't forget you when you're gone
You're like a song that goes around in my head'
Lenka

You promised to never leave until I wanted you to, well, don't you know? I'm going to hold you to your word, this wasn't a pie crust promise.
I'm thinking of words to say, convince you how I feel, everyone else laughs at how obviously I've fallen for you, it's so pathetic. Maybe there's been so many girls...it's all the same to you.

 

Every little thing reminds me of you, it's quite pathetic how absorbed I am.
Some days you feel so real, but there's times that I wonder why unrequited love is my life's theme.
You say I seem so far away, well love, I'm right here waiting for you. No matter how sad it seems, I can't help it, my heart lifts when I see you there. Then morning comes, and I try not to notice how time flies.

You say it's better if you leave, that you're bad for me.
well, if tearing me apart is better, better than what? Isn't it bad enough that you're going in a few months?
Thinking of January reduces me to tears, please don't make it come any swifter.

Why are you so afraid of hurting me? You are one of the best things to ever happen to me.

I start to imagine talks, where I would make you laugh with every word I said...I would be insightful,

or witty, or charming...and you'd want to call me...and you know what? I would be there every time.

I may be quiet, yes, you make me bashful, did you know it's hard to make conversation when abashed?
You make me have butterflies, the first person to make me want to squirm with happiness
just because you stroke my hair. Why do you think that's a bad thing?

 

Somehow, I'm not much for words of affection, but you got under my skin, more than
anyone ever did. It's a tattoo, a undeniable mark that you left on me, there forever.
You've gone through so many girls, I over analyze your words, and waste my days remembering, but the truth is, I've never felt like this before. And suddenly I'm becoming part of your past, part of the part that's not going to last. And it breaks my heart.

You'll find another girl, but I don't know that it's so easy. (it tore...tears...me up)
 I don't know if this can work, I don't know whether it should work, but I was going to try, but it takes two to make this last. I'll let you go, it'll be ok....you just have to tell me.
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